The Requisite Update

I’ve avoided this post for a long time, but I suppose now is a good time considering I can’t sleep. I haven’t really posted in awhile and a lot has happened and a lot has changed in that time. 2006 has been a very odd year so far, full of big changes. Some are great, some are terrible, some are still pending.

The year began with me miserable at work. I was ready to quit and take some risks involving my own business. Precisely at the last moment, I was offered a promotion to a Design position. I was at first reluctant, but then decided to accept it. It was a good decision. I am much happier, making better money, and learning lots of new and valuable things.

During this time, my great-grandmother, Mima died. That was one of my last posts. That is one of those inevitable moments I have dreaded my whole life.

Shortly thereafter, my girlfriend of eight years and I split up. The details don’t need to be paraded around here, but it boils down to this: while our relationship was great and she still means a lot to me, a certain amount of necessary passion had fizzled out and we couldn’t rekindle it.

I am now living alone in a studio apartment and I have a new girlfriend. She is a great girl, she makes me happy, and makes me feel things I’ve missed for a long time.

I’m still doing puppet shows regularly and I have been offered additional lucrative comics-related freelance work. Hopefully, this will all help me get my debt in order and finally buy a car. I haven’t had one in four years.

Things are promsing, but that doesn’t change the difficulties of getting there. I have always been relatively comfortable being alone, I often preferred it even while Jennifer and I were dating. Now, it’s really hard to be alone. It’s very uncomfortable, but I imagine it is necessary and beneficial I work through it. Some times I feel like a part of me is missing and I am living in a surreal parallel world I don’t recognize. This is going to be a very difficult, but seminal year in my life. I hope it works out for the best and I hope everything works out well for Jennifer too. Although we both want to remain friends, I fear that won’t be possible. That fills me with a pain I find hard to cope with.

I’m not one to cry much. I hadn’t cried in a few years that I recall. This year, there have been many tears.
Thanks for taking the time to read this. This sort of post is out of character for me. I’ll be back to sarcasm and violence soon.

-Chinny
Glendale, CA
Monday | 10 April 2006 | 2:04 AM


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The Requisite Update — 5 Comments

  1. wow. havent checked your journal in awhile.
    you know…at least you had the guts to do what i havent been able to bring myself to do OFFICIALLY yet. i am terrified that if i dont come to some resolution soon i will end up alone and lose sara forever. BUT i dont know what the fuck i want. THIS SUCKS!!!! maybe, since you obviously have the biggest set of balls known to man- you could spare one and FEDEX it to BR?
    j

  2. at least your not 30
    i completely sympathize with you. the latter is how i felt when you moved to CA. changes happen to everyone, the one thing you have to keep in mind is that your never alone as long as you have your friends.
    (unless they get married, then they become MIA)
    it may be hard now but trust me, i've been alone for a looooong time and i KNOW eventually you get adapted. fortunately for you, you have:
    1: a good job, B: a girlfriend, C: plenty of friends, and 4: a huge penis & hairy ass. i only have 1 out of 4 and i'm doin fine i'm sure you will end up better off in the long run. why you ask, because…
    ANCIENT SPIRITS OF EVIL HOOK A NIGGA UP!!!

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